Becoming- By Bambi Hill

Standing at a cross road
with my eyes toward the sky
wondering which way to go
and also asking why

each road appears to lead me
into a brand new place
behind me the road itself
seems to disappear without a trace

the good, they bad the ugly
no longer exist here
all smiles and happy thoughts
begin to replace my fear

slowly walking forward
i find a confidence
that i had thought i lost
when i put up this fence

still guarded in a safety net
i open up a bit
to see that now the path for me
has been sufficiently lit

I take a moment to thank you
for what you left behind
for making me a woman
with such an open mind

i miss you very much you see
but that i cannot show
as much as you have helped me
learn how to 'just let go'

and so, i look away from you
back towards this path of mine
leaving you in heaven now
because i know you're now just fine

don't worry though i know you're there
still watching over me
you helped me form the life i have
and who I'm supposed to be

Life or Death

If I were to die today

the world would continue to shine.
My clouds feel so dark and grey
because you never were mine.


If sadness keeps my heart chains locked
And all of the smiles fake,
the love I feel inside my heart
will do nothing but further the ache.



Feelings of loss and lonliness
Take over my daily life
Wondering how I can continue this way
Makes me feel nothing but strife.



I love my daughter to the trust of true
And my father the one who cares
The rest of the world just uses my heart
To relieve the burden of theirs.



Thoughts of death make me smile
To see her face again
Thinking of things left behind
Material is all that they’ve been



If I knew that she would be fine without me
Or continue her life without hate in her heart
Then I would leave this earth today to see….
The unseen most beautiful part.



I’ve never felt as alone before
As I do sitting here today
I wonder how long a girl can go
Living her life this way?